This is a guest post from my co-author and the creator of the gem essences, Michael King. If you've ever had anxiety and couldn't place why, read on! -Seneca
This August, I had the opportunity to speak for three days in Maryland at a church conference. I have done some public speaking before, and am part of a Christian ministry here in Portland, Oregon and we put on multiple conferences a year, so I have become increasingly accustomed to standing in front of literally hundreds of people. However, something about this event was somehow more nerve-wracking than usual. I spent time practicing my messages in advance, and felt pretty good about the whole thing, but one day I just felt off somehow.
This general feeling of unease that kind of grew, and eventually just felt like I do when I eat a bunch of food with chemicals in it and my skin is crawling, but I knew I hadn't eaten anything that would cause that. Eventually (literally hours after it started), I had the thought "This is strange. I wonder if maybe I'm anxious." I'm not a particularly anxious person, and I'm definitely not someone who is prone to notable bouts of panic under any circumstances whatsoever, so it was kind of strange. After identifying the feeling as anxiety, I realized what was actually going on.
I was having a panic attack.
I've never had one of those before, so this was very strange and new, and rather unpleasant. But then I realized, I was actually not having a panic attack. One or more of my fragments were. For those who are unfamiliar with fragments, alters (generically referred to as parts), Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and various subjects surrounding the topic, you can read more here:
- 8 Myths About Soul Fragments by Seneca
- Essences and DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) by Seneca
- Broken to Whole: Inner Healing For the Fragmented Soul, By Seneca, Michael, Matt, Diane, Sam and Ruby.
Once I realized that one or more of my fragments were the ones having panic attacks, it made a whole lot more sense—why the feeling was somewhat hard to place, as well as why it was so uncharacteristic for me. I got my adult stepdaughter to do some prayer work with me, calling up each personality that was having a panic attack, walking them through inner healing, and resolving the issue. Normally that wouldn't be too difficult, but I could already tell that these parts were in a total panic. A probably-hyperventilating probably-cannot-breathe-properly level of panic. And that's where Amethyst came to the rescue.
Disclaimer from Seneca
I need to preface that the method Michael is about to describe isn't actually necessary. We by and large take essences without calling up parts and essences reach the whole person (read more on that here). If you're not feeling like you're able to do this, or you don't have help, don't worry about it. However, if you do try Michael's method, I'd love to hear your feedback!
Normally when taking essences I use 4-5 drops either under my tongue or as Seneca recommends 4 drops in a beverage of choice, but in this case I wasn't counting. I had the dropper pre-filled and waiting, and the very moment my stepdaughter called a part up, I rapidly squirted however much essence was in the dropper into my mouth. The difference was instantaneous. In the first half-second I was literally jumping out of my skin, and a moment later I was still anxious, but could feel myself able to sit still and take a few minutes to pray through the underlying fear that was causing the panic attack. I'll be honest, as a long-time user of flower essences, I am a firm believer in what they do and how they do it (for more info on that, read this), but rarely have I ever noticed such a drastic level of effectiveness as I did that day.
The question, then, is of all the possible essences, whether flowers, frequencies, or divine gems, why did I choose Amethyst? Two reasons: First, I didn't have any Stay Calm, an essence specifically designed for anxiety, or I probably would have tried that first. I mean, the solution is literally in the title, right? Second, I have a friend who is a survivor of Satanic Ritual Abuse who dissociates frequently, and she has found that Amethyst is one of the most helpful essences she has for when her various parts are freaking out. She actually has Stay Calm as well, and uses flower essences often, but for whatever reason the flowers don't always work as strongly for her as the Divine Gem Essences do, and her two go-to essences are Amethyst and Blue Sapphire. For her, Amethyst is very helpful with anxiety and seems to settle her inner system when things are going awry and she can't get a handle on her emotions. Blue Sapphire is helpful when things feel chaotic and she has a hard time hearing God and for when she has difficulty trusting that inner voice. Knowing this, Amethyst seemed like a wise choice, and it certainly did the job!
While we did do inner healing prayer and the Amethyst didn't do the job all on its own, I honestly don't think we would have been able to do any prayer work if I hadn't taken the Amethyst essence first. As I said before, I was both surprised and impressed at how effective it was for my fragments. This isn't to say that it is ineffective for "normal" people, but that there is something about the gemstones that seem to be particularly helpful for those who are working with DID, SRA, alternate personalities, fragments, parts, etc.
If you are interested in how Amethyst or any of the other Divine Gem Essences can help you move forward on your healing journey, give them a try! Carnelian is one of my favorite, and is a bit of a combination between motivation, energy, and inner drive in a bottle, and is available in sample sizes if you want to give it a test run. All of the gem essences carry their own special benefits, and we are developing even more gem essences for the future, so get your Divine Gem Essences today, sign up for the mailing list to get updates when new essences are launching, and stay tuned for more inner healing fun!