Panic Attacks and Administering Essences to Alters and Fragments

This general feeling of unease that kind of grew, and eventually just felt like I do when I eat a bunch of food with chemicals in it and my skin is crawling, but I knew I hadn't eaten anything that would cause that.  Eventually (literally hours after it started), I had the thought "This is strange.  I wonder if maybe I'm anxious."  I'm not a particularly anxious person, and I'm definitely not someone who is prone to notable bouts of panic under any circumstances whatsoever, so it was kind of strange.  After identifying the feeling as anxiety, I realized what was actually going on.

I was having a panic attack.

I've never had one of those before, so this was very strange and new, and rather unpleasant.  But then I realized, I was actually not having a panic attack.  One or more of my fragments were.  For those who are unfamiliar with fragments, alters (generically referred to as parts), Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and various subjects surrounding the topic, you can read more here:  

• 8 Myths About Soul Fragments by Seneca
• Essences and DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) by Seneca
  
• Broken to Whole: Inner Healing For the Fragmented Soul, By Seneca, Michael, Matt, Diane, Sam and Ruby.

Normally when taking essences I use 4-5 drops either under my tongue or as Seneca recommends 4 drops in a beverage of choice, but in this case I wasn't counting.  I had the dropper pre-filled and waiting, and the very moment my stepdaughter called a part up, I rapidly squirted however much essence was in the dropper into my mouth.  The difference was instantaneous.  In the first half-second I was literally jumping out of my skin, and a moment later I was still anxious, but could feel myself able to sit still and take a few minutes to pray through the underlying fear that was causing the panic attack.  I'll be honest, as a long-time user of flower essences, I am a firm believer in what they do and how they do it (for more info on that, read this), but rarely have I ever noticed such a drastic level of effectiveness as I did that day.

Why Amethyst?

The question, then, is of all the possible essences, whether flowers, frequencies, or divine gems, why did I choose Amethyst?  Two reasons:  First, I didn't have any Stay Calm, an essence specifically designed for anxiety, or I probably would have tried that first.  I mean, the solution is literally in the title, right?  Second, I have a friend who is a survivor of Satanic Ritual Abuse who dissociates frequently, and she has found that Amethyst is one of the most helpful essences she has for when her various parts are freaking out.  She actually has Stay Calm as well, and uses flower essences often, but for whatever reason the flowers don't always work as strongly for her as the Divine Gem Essences do, and her two go-to essences are Amethyst and Blue Sapphire.  For her, Amethyst is very helpful with anxiety and seems to settle her inner system when things are going awry and she can't get a handle on her emotions.  Blue Sapphire is helpful when things feel chaotic and she has a hard time hearing God and for when she has difficulty trusting that inner voice.  Knowing this, Amethyst seemed like a wise choice, and it certainly did the job!

While we did do inner healing prayer and the Amethyst didn't do the job all on its own, I honestly don't think we would have been able to do any prayer work if I hadn't taken the Amethyst essence first.  As I said before, I was both surprised and impressed at how effective it was for my fragments.  This isn't to say that it is ineffective for "normal" people, but that there is something about the gemstones that seem to be particularly helpful for those who are working with DID, SRA, alternate personalities, fragments, parts, etc.

Related Posts